| Wednesday, March 31st, 2004 |
| 11:24 pm |
So i sit here and think....I've never been happier in my life and I look to have this outlook for a long time. I'm glad i bailed when i did and I dont think i have many regrets. i don't understand some things but hey u don't care i don't care...thats my motto... i have an awesome birthday planned for my wife...were going to rockbottom to eat, dave and busters to play at the waterfront, aerosmith concert tickets and the box set...i can't wait but for now i must sleep... |
| Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004 |
| 10:36 am |
i just don't understand people sometimes...they really know how to piss me off...but its ok cause i won't let the lil non important things get to me just some people...lil fucked up...thats all ...i have no reason to cause in just a few days i'll be heading to florida with the wife to visit linda and beth...i'm so excited i can't wait... after rolling my jeep monday morning and only having a concussion and some bumps and bruises...i'm so thankful and it made me realize how lucky i am...as well as how u can't take anything for granted... |
| Friday, February 27th, 2004 |
| 11:42 pm |
Often i find myself pondering the question Y? Y me? whats so special about me? but after a while i've come to the conclusion not to think this way but think along the terms of ...i feel so special to be loved by such a beautiful person both inside and out.. A person thats intelligent, smart, sophisicatedd, dedicated to school, sweet, adorable, loving, considerate, caring always laughing, and i could go on and on....No longerr do i wonder Y me I just sit back and smile knowing i'm loved by such a special someone who means the world to me and one i wish, hope and pray will never leave me. Its the feeling of completness i get when i'm with you. the feeling that i've completed another step of my life, ready to settle down and live a happy life. it scares the beegeezers out of me to feel this way but i'm loving every second of it and its the greatest feeling in the world...bethany i love you so much i promise never to break your heart as long as i live and i hope you'll love me the rest of my life. on terms of others...i just dunno, sometimes when i think something i'm proved wrong... |
| Sunday, February 22nd, 2004 |
| 12:16 am |
bethany: I care about you that much. That will help me. I wouldn't just do it for anyone bethany: Because it is basically me picking you or my family bethany: and I have to be willing to do that bethany: but it will ease somewhat later bethany: I know my mom won't disown me for long |
| 12:16 am |
bethany: I care about you that much. That will help me. I wouldn't just do it for anyone bethany: Because it is basically me picking you or my family bethany: and I have to be willing to do that bethany: but it will ease somewhat later bethany: I know my mom won't disown me for long |
| 12:14 am |
bethany:And I know that love will drive me through it when it comes to that. I know that I will be able to do it for you Bethany:and for us i love her *sigh* |
| Thursday, February 12th, 2004 |
| 11:06 am |
Nothing much new to post, same shit different day. i've notice my energy level has increased which i enjoy greatly, perhaps it has to do with being so happy. I can honestly say I've never felt this way. And i know you all say its so early but damn i feel like i've taken a new step in life. Completely the silly single, wild college life i really didn't live in the first place but i feel like i'm settled down no more petty shit about relationships no more trust issues, no more flirting i always worried about, just 2 people so into each other that they don't think twice about anyone else. You know how much u love someone when u dance on laps of other girls and your wife comes up to u and says get her and so u get off that girl and grind ur wife and get so turned on while the whole lap thing didn't even get u excited. ya following me? I've learned to ignore petty shit from people and just live my life and if they can accept that then thats cool. i spend as much time as i can with my wife and its just something ya'all have to understand and accept and i thank u if u do. umm and in reference to something, eh i'm just gonna leave it go and see... so excited for this weekend its gonna be the best valentines day ever and its bethany and i's 1st valentines day together and if u boycott it i'm sorry but your missing out on a special day of love, but whatever floats ur boat, i'm enjoying my valentines day!!! |
| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004 |
| 11:44 pm |
This past weekend
This past weekend some friends and me went to my condo at seven springs. Lindsey, Stacy, Linda, Beth, Jess and my girlfriend Bethany. Oh and Marki came up sat night, and a few of jess's friends stopped in. We partied hard Friday night, made a fire, beth tackled me, linda and i did a few shots of vodka, my wife drank wine till she was drunk hehe, i tried my racing suit on and then beth put it on as well, all in all it was a good night till the next morning linda was so sick, they decided to go home. we all woke up around 9ish, bethany and i exchanged gifts, then decided to not ski till 430 so we went to the store and got some food to make chicken and dumplings, well bethany made it :) and then got some beer and linds and stacy rented skis and a snowboard. We skied it was so cold but awesome. Bethany was so cute, she didnt fall at all and did very well, linds feel but she was awesome by the end of the night, and stacy and i hit a few of the bigger slopes. We got home at 11 and Bethany made us chicken and dumplings, had a beer or 2 and we called it a night. Woke up sunday and relaxed the whole day, left around 530 for my house to watch some of the superbowl and then back to Bethany's house. The car ride was interesting lol, I have a few songs ima remember!! Went to bed around 230 but i'm not complaining, then woke at 530 to come back and go to classes. It was an awesome weekend with friends and nice just to relax and hang with everyone. I can't wait, I bought Bethany Toby Keith concert tickets were going for Valentines day, I'm so excited. On family notes, my cousin Michele and Matt had a baby girl a few days ago, my other cousins Cliff and Carole adopted a 2month old baby named Sameul. My best friend Jess had her baby mid January. Josh is headed to Iraq March 23rd i believe still in wisconsin, and he's missing home really bad and i miss him terribly. Chad moved into his new house its so awesome. Markie's getting a new quad. Can't wait to start riding, Mr. Douglas is getting rid of Spanky, Benny and Rex I'm so upset Spanky will be gone in March. I can't wait to see my girlfriend. She makes me so happy and its pretty much a drama free relationship and i can't tell you how great that is, we don't fight and there's not trust issues, just missing u issues and thats ok cause i get my work done during the week so i can play on the weekends...ok bedtime i must go. |
| Monday, January 26th, 2004 |
| 3:39 pm |
this weekend
can't wait to take the wife skiing and stay at the condo I'm so excited to go its gonna be great. Partying with linda and beth for one of the last times before they leave, and bunch of other people...its gonna be awesome. I'll get through the week if i just keep remembering the weekend i'm gonna have... :) |
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| Wednesday, January 14th, 2004 |
| 10:49 am |
2 hrs on the phone last night...didnt seem enough...but i can really never get enough of her so i'm not complaining...i have the best idea for valentines day can't wait!!!!...well i must go to class...but no worries tomorrow i'll be in her arms and loving every second of it...yes its love...its more than love!!! |
| 12:10 am |
tonight
Tonight on the phone was awesome!!!!! I miss her so much can't wait to see her...Taste those sweet lips of hers...ahhh yeah thats my happiness :) but i'm going to be to have sweet dreams.. |
| Tuesday, January 13th, 2004 |
| 2:31 pm |
sometimes i just don't get it... anyways...can't wait for the weekend...its gonna be great...so much work though to get done before it...im dreading this semester its gonna be full of work but oh well i'll get through it...k i gotta look up some info about Norman the albino frog hehe...but he's eating better she said so makes me feel more confident he's gonna live :) |
| Monday, January 12th, 2004 |
| 10:44 am |
my weekend
After waiting forever to be with her when i walked through her door i melted...when she kissed me i melted even more...when she held me in her arms it was all over. My weekend began Saturday around 645pm and ended Monday morning 4am. Fucking rocked...amazing, stunning, wonderful, content, fulfilled, more than satisfied and can't wait till next weekend. maybe even thursday!!! We exchanged late christmas gifts and it was so awesome...can't tell ya what i got its a secret but I got lots of stuff. Then we watched Identity and then started Bound but never finished. Woke up around 650 am back to bed around 8 slept till 11. Went to lunch at the Texas Roadhouse, then walmart, then back to her house to relax. Played with Norman lol he's so adorable and bright orange. Watched Finding Nemo, made chicken noodle soup :) Planned on leaving around 9 but you know how that works...went to bed at 1 woke at 4 left 430ish unwilling but had to...waiting for friday to come. Can't wait to play with all my christmas gifts... dreading unloading my car but excited to at the same time...wanting this semester to fly although its my last one with ape and not gonna talk about it cause it makes me sad....4 years with that girl...i love her to death.. Hoping summer is here already... :) but this school year should prove fun and exciting as well... nothing but happy thoughts i'll write more later when i get my computer hooked up |
| Saturday, January 10th, 2004 |
| 12:14 am |
Tomorrow is the day i've been waiting for...actually today about 17 hrs from now...i will be the happiest person on this earth... :P so don't bother me k? back to school sunday night late to start classes...actually hoping the semester flies and its summer time...can't wait for that...lots of packing to do tomorrow and leaving here round 5 |
| Friday, January 9th, 2004 |
| 12:20 am |
its been a while
so i decided to go public for a post or 2...what the hell i don't have anything to hide and its my honest feelings...i met this really cool girl who i've fallen for hard...she'll be around for a long time so no worries there you'll all meet her I will give you nothing but the best ~quoted from her~ can't wait for this weekend!!!!!!! and next!!!!! and well the next!!!! off to bed i go having sweet dreams...just one more day |
| Sunday, January 4th, 2004 |
| 9:48 pm |
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| Thursday, October 23rd, 2003 |
| 1:42 pm |
and now... a moment of self-indulgence - wait, isn't it always?
01-- When and how did we meet?: 02-- What did you first notice about me?: 03-- What do you like most about me?: 04-- Are we friends?: 05-- Have you ever seen me with my shirt off?: 06-- Have you ever seen me cry?: 07-- Describe me in four words?: 08-- If we could spend a day together what would we do?: 09-- Have we ever gotten in a fight?: 10-- If you could give me a present what would it be?: 11-- Would you hug me?: 12-- What do you really think of me?: 13-- Have we ever kissed?: 14-- Has there ever been anything you wanted to tell me, but were scared to?: 15-- Wanna make out?: |
| Tuesday, October 21st, 2003 |
| 10:31 pm |
sometimes i wish... sometimes i want... sometimes i wish my head would stop or my jealously would be noexistant or i could trust and not worry about having it broken... i don't want u to change but i can't deal if u don't this is what goes through my mind when i'm suppose to be doing homework i wish it was summer and i woudln't have to deal with school work i could just go about being an equine vet tech making lots of money...like more than 10$ an hr...for like 14-18 hrs a day...yeah i just wanna fast forward time right now...that would be great i want "him" to be mine and i shall call "him" squishy for privacy protection hehe...much love Current Mood: awake |
| Wednesday, October 1st, 2003 |
| 5:22 pm |
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